A New World

It's been a tough few weeks of tossing and turning, and not just in my sleep, trying to figure out what I need to do. Trying to balance the desire of the soul with the need of the mind. You know that need of making money, putting food on the table and generally being an important contributor in the world. What a mind F@#$ it's been, so much confusion and grief and anger. I know I have a calling but how do I get that calling to fit into the world. There it was, 'fit into the world' trying to fit into the world...... Guess what, it ain't going to happen. So I guess I've been hiding out again, running away from my deep knowing and inner truth!